The heart..people need it to love
..but i can not love, so what's the point?
This 'heart' is nothing but my down fall...it can not protect you from lies..such useless...
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[FLASH BACK]
"[name] do you understand your mission? get into the cavallone, gian his trust...than take him down, we will destory that family.remember not to get close to anyone their got it?" you stood their, eye's ice-cold you slightly bowed "hai, bossu..i am your tool after all.." you than stood up. your hip-length sliver hair swayed slightly as you walked away,your snow-white eye's shined in the moon "i will destory them..as planned" iyou whispered queitly while popping a cherry into your mouth.
[END OF FLASH BACK]
It's been 3 months since than, and you have made it quite far into the cavallone family..they all trusted you..this was like any normal mission you've had before..but than why...why did your heart ache so much? you bit your lower-lip..had you fallen for leader of the cavallone? your thoughts where interupted as you looked back to see the boss of the cavllone walk in, he had golden blond hair and choclate-brown eyes. it was hard to hide the blush you had becuase you had such pale skin, you shook your head and stood up, bowing "welcome back bossu" you smiled shyly.
-it was all a lie..the smiles...the laughs...so why did it hurt so much when he called for you?...-
Dino smiled at you, he dismissed the others as they left, he then walked up to you patting you on the head "how are you doing [name]-chan?" he smiled down at you, your heart pricked in pain, but you smiled needless to say "i'm alright bossu, did things go well with tsunayoshi-kun?" as you two kept talking you zoned out part of the way, your eye's scanning over him, he was beautiful...you closed your pale-white eyes 'i can't get close to him...i'll have to kill him, than i'll just have to use this to my advantge..' you thought to yourself, but of coruse doing this you where going to have to kill your own heart first..
"[name]-chan, [name]-chan?" you snapped out of yout thoughts as you looked up at dino, he looked worried "oh, gomenasai bossu i was just thinking about something...what where you saying?" you smiled, that smile..was misleading him for so long...
Dino smiled holding up a bag of cherries "got these for you [name]-chan" You blushed,almost like a kitty getting a treat you grabbed the bag opening them quickly and put one in your mouth.
one weakness you had..
you...
loved...
cherries.
you heard him laugh, ugh..that laugh made you melt. "ah..arigatou bossu" you smiled
, avioding his smile though, his damned smile always made you fall for him alittle more each time. your phone started to ring, you jumped up "ano...gomenasai i have to take this" you said qucikly running out of his office with your bag of cherries, you ran to your room and slammed the door shut, holding the bag closely to your chest, you than answered the call "hello-"
"[name]" the voice on the other line seemed angry, you frowned..it was your boss..your real boss "ah...bossu what is it?-" once again you where cut off by the voice on the other line "[name] what's taking so long? we need to hurry things up. got it? or else i'll have to handle things myself" his voice was icey and cold, you closed your eye's tightly, why should you care? you've killed before lots of times "remeber [name]..what are you?" he asked, his voice was like a razor blade you fromed your pale-eyes emotionless as your stared at the moon though your window "hai..i am..your tool bossu...to use at your will" you heard a 'click and the other line went dead, your frowned and your grip on the bag of cherries slowly loosned until they fell to the gorund and you soon followed. "what the hell is this?..the place where my heart should be is always in..pain" your lip trembled as your queitly sobbed, you wanted to put dino into a sealed box and hide him away from everyone..so he would only be yours..he'd only look at you. but you knew that once he found out you where from the trono family he'd hated you..and even kill you if you didn't first..you lookd up at the moon, eye's pure-ice again, "i'm going to have to end this soon afterall.." you whispered queitly as you picked up one of the fallen cherries and crushed it, the juice looked like blood as it ran down your thin pale arm.
- he had always been so nice to you ever since you came to this family..he made you laugh...like really laugh not just fake ones you where used to..he became your best friend..than that day is when it made things hard of the thought of killing him...-
You layed on your bed, staring at the cealing. tears threaten to fall "if that day never happened than i wouldn't care about killing him! this damned heart" you crused into your pillow, thinking about that day.. and tomorrow would be exactly 2 months since that day...
[FLASH BACK]
"hey, [name]-chan are-" but before your clumsy boss could finish what he was saying he tripped over the top of the stairs..dragging you with him, you cursed as you fell down, rubbing your head, although you had gotten used to the fact he was a major klutz qucikly it still annoyed the hell out of you. "oi, bossu you-" you paused when you noticed how close his face was to yours, it wouldn't bug you so much if he wasn't staring at you so hard. you suddenly felt nerouvs and tired to get out of his grip "[name]-chan..i've wanted to tell you this for sometime now but.." dino puased, you looked up confused "what-" but you where cut off by his warm lips crashing onto your pale-cold ones, you body felt like a jolt of lightning went though it. "what the hell!?' you thought to yourself, but what was strange is..you didn't push him away..you started to kiss him back. you felt your cheeks burn with heat. he soon pulled away and looked at you, his eyes serious "we'll be together forever [name]-chan" he said quritly, you frowned..it wouldn't be true..but you where already misleading him...so what would another lie hurt? at the time you didn't know but it would hurt you as well "hai..dino" you whispered.
[END OF FLASH BACK]
your eye's shot open as you heard a knock on your door, your heart was already pounding from thinking about that day, and knowing that soon you would betray the trust they all had with you..the love he had for you..you would end it with your own hands..you could already see the blood on your hands, his cold body on the floor, his smile gone..forever out of your reach. You gasped and hit your head..you didn't want to think about that at all right now. Your froced yourself to your feet and slowly made your way towards the door, you glanced at the floor at the disgraded cherries that had been dropped eariler, you sighed and unlocked the door, who the hell would be bugging you this late at night anyway? you opened the door "what is it-" you froze, your eye's widden when you saw it was none other than him..dino at your door, he blushed slightly seeing you in your night gown "ah.. [name]-chan sorry to bug you this late it's just uh..do you mind if i come in for a moment?" he asked shyly, you sighed and let him in...he was you 'boss' after all, "what is it bossu?" you asked, alittle monotone. he seemed alittle sad when you called him 'bossu' you shurged it off and sat on your bed. for awhile it was queit, not one said or did anything...and to tell you the turth it was strangling you..this queit was driving you mad, but finally the blond-haired boy said something "ah..well [name]-chan you see it's been 2 months since that day..and i know we really haven't brought it up..but..well i have strong feelings for you.." you felt like your heart stopped..
-no..dont say it..shut up..shut up!-
He continued to talk "so i was wondering..would you be my girlfriend [name]-chan?" he asked, his voice alittle faint, but soft he held out a ring witht he amethyst stone..which was your birth-stone as well. you felt tears sting the corners of your eyes. even if you said yes you knew it was going to end badly..he would just htink all of this was a lie..that you where just some spy from the trono family to murder him in cold blod..and that you used his heart for nothing. your hand gripped onto your knee tightly, almost as if you wanted to break it. you closed your eyes 'maybe this is for the best..if i accept...than tell him the turth when it's time..it will hurt him..shatter his heart..he will hate me..i will be nothing to him..he'll think i was usuing him..yes..this is what i must do..even if it kills my own heart in the process' you bitterly thought to yourself, you pushed away all of that and froced a smile "i accept..dino" you placed a hand on his, he smiled brightly at you, placing the ring on your finger, for another moment things where queit, but he soon leaned in closer until his lips met with yours, you felt tears swell in your eye's, becuase you knew after tonight..you would be hated..so why not go out with a bang?
His hands traced your curves and stopped when his hand reached your breast, you shivered at his touch, soon he pusehd you down onto the bed and was hovering over you, he broke off the kiss and placed his face in the crook of your neck, finding your soft-spot and licking,biting,kissing it. you moaned queitly. embrassed by the sounds that came out of your mouth, he smirked into your neck and slipped off the straps to your dress, sand slid it down until you where just in your bra and under-wear. you seemed to glow in the moond light, your pale skin, your sliver hair, and snow-white eyes..it was like you came form the moon, Dino stopped for a moment only to disgaurd his clothing then attacked you lips again, you moaned "d-dino" you shivered as he took off your bra in one shift movement. he lowered himself and started to lick and bite your left breast as his hand mesaged the other one, it made you shiver, but it felt good at the same time, you held on tightly to his hair, your eyes widdened in shock and you gasped when he started to lick you woman-hood, "d-dino!" you screamed until you released, you felt embrassed for doing that so soon, and that part of his face was covered in it. you covered your face with your hands "gomenasai.." you muttered, he smiled and removed your arms from your face "don't be [name]-chan" he said kissing her, he than started leaving butterfly kisses down your face..to your neck..to yout chest and stomach until he reached back to you woman-hood, he looked at you "are you ssure [name]-chan?" he asked, in a loving tone, you felt tears fall down your cheek, it burned..you weren't crying becuase you where scared...it was becuase you knew you'd never be able to feel this way again..it was all lies..and it made you feel dirty..you where so selfish "hai..d-dino" you said trying not to cry, he kissed away the tears (he thought you where just scared) than in one thurst he was inside of you, you gasped in shock and started to sob, from the pain of him entering you and the pain knowing you where going to lose him, he leaned towards you, holding you tightly "shhh, it's okay the pain will be over soon" he whispered
- If only he knew how right he was...-
Once the pain was gone he started to thrust in and out of you slowly, you felt pleasure take over your body and for a moment you forgot about the pain within your heart, you held on tightly to him just like he was to you. you moaned his name loudly "D-dino!" you screamed, he grunted "[name]!" he buried his face in your chest, soon he went faster and faster the more you called out his name, you felt your walls tighten around his shaft, your nail digged into his skin "DINO!" you screamed one last time as he did to "[NAME]!" he screamed and with a few more thurts you both came, you both fell onto the bed as he pulled out of you and rolled next to you. dino gently ran his hands though your hair "i'll love you forever..[name]-chan" he smiled, you swallowed down the tears that wanted to come out "i love you to dino" you whispered, afriad you might cry again,he leaned over and kissed you gently, but full of passion, you held onto him tightly, not wanting the kiss to end but you both parted, you could see his eye's started to close from being so tired, and within a matter of mintues he was asleep, holding you protectively, you lay there wacthing him for awhile, not wanting to leave his warm embrace, but soon you phone buzzed, you frowned and looked at the text message 'It's time' was all it said but you knew what it meant, you wiped away the few tears that escaped and got of of dino's grip, you slowly made your way to the bathroom and took a quick shower, "gomenasai..dino" you leaned your head agasint the wall, tears flowing down your cheek queitly "sayounara.." (you where part japanese btw) after awhile you turned off the water and dried yourself off, you than put on black mini-shorts, knee-high shoes, skull belt, a black shirt that stopped at you belly-button and had a ripped heart on it, as well as gloves (that showed your fingers) and a long jacker that also had a hood, (it worked since you where so pale) you walked out of the bathroon putitng you phone in your pocket, and grabbing your moon-staff, you turned to look at dino one last time, he looked so peaceful asleep, you kissed him gently on the head you turned, grabbed a cherry off the night-stand and pushed it into your mouth and walked out the door, there was no turning back now...
[FEW HOURS LATER]
"BOSS! BOSS! WAKE UP!' Dino (startled_ woke up and fell out of the bed "eh?" he looked and saw you where gone, and he saw romario "what is it> what's going on?" dino asked, yawning, romario took out his gun "you need to hurry the trono family is attacking! there's someone leading them,..but i can't see who it is there covering their face with a hood..but bossu..they have a moon-staff" he whispered, dino eye's widdened he quickly threw on his clothes and rushed out side where he heard gun fires, explosions,etc. he rushed to the front with romario behind and saw the person witht he moon-staff, he gritted his teeth 'what did you to do [name]-chan!?" but he only heard a laugh, he looked back and saw the boss of the trono family, "ren.." dino glared at him (thats the boss's name) ren simply kept laughing "[name]-chan? she did nothing..why don't you see for your self?" ren snapped his fingers, the person nodded and reached up and pulled her hood down, dino felt a dagger in his heart when he saw who it was, she had sliver hair..snow-white eyes..body so pale... "[n-name]-chan?" he chocked, you stood there, hair blowing in the wind, eye's emotionless. "w=why?" dino asked, heart broken, you tighten your grip on your staff, you also felt you heart snap in half "why? becuase i was sent to kill you of coruse..i felt nothing else towards tou cavallone" you spat,
-even though it was all a lie..you loved him..but he was sure to hate you now..-
"That's not true [name]-chan!" dino called out, you whacked him with your staff "my full name is [name], [last name] of the trono fammily, i can mislead anyone i want to get information..to kill them you name it.." you hissed, you then took out the ring he gave you and shattered it right infront of him..of coruse now you where shattered as well. dino held his heart "do you hate me now..cavallone? do you dispise me?" you taunted. dino couldn't beilve it..would you really go though all of that..and feel nothing
'would she give up all that..even her body..just in order to get her mission done?' Dino thought to himself, he wouldn't beilve it...he knew that the [name] he came to know and love for 4 months wasn't all a lie..maybe at first but...she really came apart of the family!, dino stood up looking straight at you, you flinched slightly but kept calm "it's not true [name]-chan i know it, you love me! if not your wouldn't just give up your body to me would you!" dino yelled, you flinched knowing that your boss wouldn't like that, ren frowned and glared towards you "you what?" he asked, angry, he walked over to you and slapped you so hard you spat out blood "how dare you! witht he CAVALLONE? you little screw up..you SLUT!" he yelled at you hitting you over and over,,,you didn't fight back though..you couldn't...it was true you loved him "your supose to kill him, i told you emotions are nothing you belong to ME you got that you piece of trash! good for nothing whore, kill him NOW and we'll deal with this later!" he said whacking you with the back of his gun, you fell to the floor now covere din blood, weakly you spoke "n-no..." your boss glared at you "what was that [name]?" you glared at him "NO! I LOVE DINO AND IW ON'T KILL HIM!" you screamed, and before you knew it you heard a 'bang'..your boss had shot you.. "than die piece of trash" he spat, you gasped for air as you fell down, but you never hit the floor..dino had caught you "[name]! [name]! hang in there!" you heard his smooth voice filled with terror, you weakly smiled and brushed a hand agaisnt his cheek "you..don't hate me?" you asked faintly, he held your hand "of coruse not..i told you i'd love you forever" he whispered, tears in his eyes, you laughed queitly than looked at the warm, sticky liguid pouring out of your body "i never knew..there was any darker red then cherries..heh.." you whispered one last time than everything went black...
[......]
"ngh..." you groaned as your eye's slowly opened, it took a moment to remeber where you where, you gasped and sat up quickly, but winced in pain "w-what happened to dino!?" you yelled to yourself "i'm fine [name]" you heard a voice behind you and saw dino, tears where in your eyes as you hugged onto him tightly, he held you just as tight "i'm sorry..i'm sorry" you kept saying, he ran his figners though your hair lovingly "it's okay it's okay..you don't have to worry about it anymore..ren's gone" he whispered, your eyes widdened when he said that, you looked at dino but only smiled, he leaned down to kiss you, and as he did you started to kiss back with alot of force, you where just so happy dino was still alive..that you could still feel his warm embrace "[name]-chan.." he whispered queitly into your ear, you looked up at him "yes?" you asked, he carefully placed you back on the bed, and then held out a ring, it was as red as a cherry "will you marry me [name]?" he asked, you gasped, feeling like you where going to sob again, your heart ached but in a good way, you where...so happy..you've never felt like this before. you hugged him tightly "yes! of coruse dino, of coruse!" you laughed while crying, dino smiled and slipped the ringer onto your figner, holding you tightly he spun you around and kissed you gently "i love you [name]-chan" he whispered, you paused for a moment..but now you weren't afiard to say it..you had nothing to hide.." i love you to dino!" you kissed him once more.
[EXTENED ENDING]
it had been 3 years since that time..you had married him a month after he asked you to. and then a year after that you had twin boys, they both had blond hair and snow-white eyes. they where 2 years old now. since than even during the diffcult times you knew you had dino...forever and nothing would change that..you loved him..he loved you..you both had made a family..the trono was a hting of the past..you where a cavallone,,and damn proud of it. you names one of your boys 'tsuki' (moon) and the other boy 'Awai' (pale). sadly they could both be clumsy like their father though, but you'd have it no other way...you loved it just the way it was..and also it seemed your sons have grown to have a huge addiction to cherries..wonder why they got that from? "dino~ were gonna need more cherries" you called out, both you, tsuki and awai mouths where red from finishing off two bags of cherries, dino laughed "hai hai, my little cherry monsters, right [name]-chan?" you laughed and kissed dino on the cheek, you would do anything to protect this..nothing would take them away from you.
- Hearts..they can be the best thing...or the wrost..they can make you shatter so easily..but at the times it's the only thing keeping you alive..lies or love? it's different for everyone..but this time...
what started out as a lie...
..defatinly turned out into pure..lasting...
..love...-
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THE END!
I HOPE ALL MY READERS LIKED IT! I'M SORRY I HAVENT POSTED IN AWHILE! but please keep sending me request!
and this is a one-shot made for xEutopuax and i hope she likes it! arigatou~
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